Often in your late twenties you have these humbling moments that remind you that you are getting old. I have been experiencing them for the past two years and I experienced it yesterday.
I was, for a change, at my boyfriends for the weekend and the plan was simple – Christmas market in Varazdin and then an evening with his friends. The Christmas market was lovely, there weren’t as many people as there are in Zagreb, the food was good, the lights were magical, Santa’s town was my favorite.
And then we went back home, had some dinner and went to the bar. The first thing I considered, the thing I consider always now is that every bar in Croatia is predominantly built for smoking. I am not going to be a hypocrite, I was a smoker for 7 years straight, then stopped and then started on-and-off again and I am trying to stop completely now again.
I understand that it isn’t profitable for bars and clubs in Croatia to be non-smoking because we have a very strong smoking culture, but it can really be exhausting sometimes. The smoke was constantly messing with my eyes and gave me a bit of a headache. The whole evening also threw me off my sleeping schedule. I am so old and I am not the only one. All of this friends were ready to go to bed around 10 and I found it all a bit funny.
It’s very different to the Ana from before. Ana from before could be in any dump, smoke or no-smoke, drink until morning and then go to a morning lecture. Where is that strength? Now I need to have a certain amount of sleep to be able to function. Also, not sleeping enough messes with my energy to workout and I cannot just let something mess with my running schedule.
I saw something on TikTok that in your late 20ies, you are either running or having a baby and we all know which category I fall into.
Anyway, I need to take a little nap because I have plans tonight as well. Some quality theatre time with my friends and starting Monday I am getting my sleep schedule into place again.
Love,
Luna
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Also you can get my poetry books: Rehab and Identity crisis