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How do normal people work?

Hello! I realized that I am a weirdo when it comes to doing anything so I would like to check if there are other people who are weirdos as well. If I am not completely suffocating in work, scared that I will miss all my deadlines, handling multiple tasks at once I just don’t know […]

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#savingme: Scared of my memories

Do you know what people don’t talk about enough when it comes to trauma? The loss of memory victims experience. I have my issues with repressed memory and when I realized I had this problem, I believed it to be a blessing.   Who would want to remember every single detail of their extremely traumatic childhood […]

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Knock, Knock! It’s me – anxiety!

So my anxiety woke up this week and chose violence. I am not having the best week. My life in general, not the best, but this week my anxiety has just been killing me. I hate when it happens and it lasts so long. Do you know what I hate the most? My lack of […]

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Poem #371

Who will I be today?Always the same skin, I cannot escape.But which hands will be manipulating me today?They all belong to my body,they are just controlled by different demons. I want to choose happinessbut every day I wake up to chaos in my head.Turn it all up, open the windows, let the noise injust force […]

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Poem #370

I tilt my head back, ordering my tearsto go right back to their source.If I am not ready to move with those tearsand start fixing what is brokenI do not have the right to shed them. So I tilt my head back, a lake is in my eyes,the ceiling looks blurry and I am familiarwith […]

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Where did Luna start?

As you all know, my real name is Ana and in The Story Behind The Name Luna I explained where did this name come from. But today, I actually want to talk to you about how Luna started and how I actually started to publish on the internet… and it wasn’t poetry! “Luna” was originally […]

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Poem #368

Do at least the tears of an artistshave any worth for the world?We started signing our work with them. We want to create something eternal,something that will live after us.We want to be great, we want to be the bestand we wander the world not knowing who we are. If you pick art, you will […]

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Get Ready for Food posts

Hello everyone! How are you all doing? I am not doing so great. The weather is messing with me again and in order not to think about my headache I decided to clean my kitchen. You all know I live in a shoe box, my kitchen is very small but it took me 2 hours […]

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Peeling off the layers of self-hate

Hello everyone! The category “My Life” on this blog used to be a place where I would share what’s new with me, where I went, what I wore etc., but now it feels more like “Let me tell you what I discovered is wrong with me lately”. Since I had my meltdown and decided to […]

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This book is calling me out.

Hello everyone! There was a book that was recommended to me in the comments of my post I am not doing okay…again. I started reading this book recently and I came to a chapter about lost connections with people and felt personally attacked by this book, here’s a quote from the book: Anywhere in the […]