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New Years Vlog

Hello everyone! 

Today is December 31st which is the last day of this shitty, shitty year. A lot has happened and still is happening and this night, the midnight, going from 2020 to 2021 will not change anything but it’s good to have hope and work hard to make 2021 an overall better year for the whole world. 

I decided to film a little vlog for all of you, I actually filmed this in the morning on the day of the earthquake.

After what has happened in Croatia, I didn’t think that I will be editing and posting this because I am still struggling with fear and my nerves after the earthquake. Editing this vlog for a few hours actually helped me to get my mind off of everything and away from the news so I decided to post it. I hope you are going to like it and subscribe to my channel. In the description of the video, you can find the link with all of the information on how to donate to the victims of the earthquake, if you are interested in that. I will actually leave the link here as well:  https://solidarna.hr/urgent-call-for-action-from-croatia-solidarna-foundation-and-fund-5-5/?lang=en

I hope you are all well, safe and happy and that we will all have a good 2021!

I love you all and thank you for another year!

Sending love and positive vibes
Luna

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And another earthquake

I have never been this scared in my life. I have been through shit but standing on the second floor of a building during another earthquake that devastated a whole city in Croatia is a different kind of scared. The scared when your legs are not firmly on the ground and you cannot run but you are waiting for the ceiling to crash down.  

What has happened today is even more devastating than the earthquake from the beginning of the year in Zagreb. This one was 30x  more stronger. I just heard glasses and everything around me shaking and I stood calm in my kitchen thinking it’s a minor earthquake and then it didn’t stop and it got worse. I tried to hold myself for a door frame but I couldn’t find any balance. I was alone in the apartment and my brain just went into some type of autopilot. I did not think about what I was doing, like I had no conscious control over my body but something inside of me was reacting under emergency. I unlocked the door, leaned against a wall and started going down the stairs. Everyone was out. Whole cities were out.  

Just when I walked out of my building I saw my mom heading towards me. That’s when it hit me. The ground underneath our feet is still shaking. The sirens of the cars went off and then the sirens of the fire department went off. Get out. Just everyone get out. I couldn’t reach my sister, my brother-in-law, my boyfriend. The lines were down immediately after the earthquake, no internet, no phone, no electricity in some cities. No way to know if people who you love were actually alive and well.  

I got through to my family and boyfriend after the longest 10 minutes of my life and then the news and the pictures and the videos started to flood the internet. The city Petrinja devastated, houses collapsed, the military and fire department were trying to pull people out of the ruins. A child was the first victim.

Once more, just a few months after the first earthquake, a country that will not sleep. 

The police, the military, ambulances, doctors and volunteers are out on the streets and people across Croatia are offering their apartments to the victims to put a roof over their heads.  

I don’t have any more words. This morning I was filming a vlog, cleaning the house, trying to make lunch and then I was out on the rain in slippers listening to sirens and watching more and more people run to the streets. My brain is still trying to process what has happened. There is this strange feeling in my knees and in my gut, like my body is under constant alert waiting to run out again.  Every five minutes I am convinced that I can feel everything shaking.

I went with my mom to give our donations for Petrinja and now I am in the apartment just trying to learn how to control this fear and control my mind.

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I will keep you all in my thoughts and we will get through this.  

Pray for Croatia <3 

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Another earthquake? Really 2020? Really?!

I was woken up around 6:30 this morning by another earthquake. If you have been following me for a longer time you know that besides COVID, Croatia has had an awful earthquake that left people homeless, we had a flood and this morning we had another earthquake. If this is a trailer for 2021, I am not buying a ticket for that movie.  

The epicenter was not near my city but it happened at the same time the first earthquake did and my bed started to shake around the room, I heard the furniture shaking, the cracking sound. It was the same as the first time just less intense shaking. I know a lot of people had PTSD after the first earthquake this year and I hope they are okay because this was a strong trigger for everyone. According to the news there were no victims but there are damages.  

There was another minor earthquake about two hours later and this one was scarier for me because I was completely awake and I just felt the couch shaking. Also living on the second floor of an older building during an earthquake does not make shit easier.  

I know that entering 2021 will not change anything or erase this past year but I am looking forward to exiting this year. I am going to make lunch now for me and my mom and I am going to make pasta because pasta is comfort food and makes me feel happier.  

I hope you had a better morning and that you will have a great week. I love you all and alsooooooo this week we will have a new Youtube video! 

Sending love and positive vibes, 
Luna 

Latest Poem: Poem #347
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What is actually going on?

Hello everyone!

I got back to my apartment now with my mom. We spent the morning and had lunch at my sisters because we were scared to be in our building due to the earthquake I wrote to you about in the morning.

There have been some reports about it in English as well:
https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2020/03/croatia-zagreb-rocked-powerful-earthquake-200322080421838.html

I do not have the words to describe what is going on. I understand the situation, I know that most of our hospitals are damaged, children in incubators were transported by our military and people lost their homes. Some of them won’t be able to return to their apartments because its unsafe. During the earthquake people ran to the streets and we broke a lot of rules about social distancing due to the Coronavirus and this earthquake made the outbreak even worse.

I know that we are giving our best to provide for the families in need now and to safely transport people to hospitals which weren’t damaged. People also brought blankets to patients who were evacuated from hospitals and meals were being given out to people who had to wait out in the cold. My city was affected by the earthquake but not as much as Zagreb and my heart goes out to all of the families suffering the consequences of this terrible earthquake.

And I still have no words. Just two weeks ago my biggest concern was my job, the guy I was dating a few weeks ago, I also had a night out with my work crew. I actually had the option of going to the store whenever needed and now all of the sudden the streets are empty, cops are patrolling, an earthquake happened and I just do not know what to say. Do you ever have the feeling like you are just observing things that are happening to you and in your surroundings but as if you are just not living through it. It’s very hard for me to explain this state I am in but it did help me today. I didn’t panic, I have been very calm most of the day. I had to hold back my tears seeing mothers with newborns standing in front of the hospital and babies in incubators being transported by the military. This is a very difficult time for our country and for our capital.

I just wanted to check in, let you know that I am okay and that Zagreb is pushing through this. We are fighting this, we are defending ourselves from Corona and we are not giving up! Thank you all for the kind comments and wishes!

Please stay safe, wash your hands and practice social distancing.

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

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Zagreb earthquake

I was woken up today by an earthquake 5.4 magnitude. My building, bed – everything was shaking. I just heard my mother scream out my name. Building in Zagreb are destroyed, hospitals are damaged and during the Coronavirus outbreak people had to go outside because it wasn’t safe inside.

One child was injured during the earthquake inside of the hospital and doctors are fighting for his life. Mothers and newborns are being evacuated, wrapped only in blankets and mothers that should give birth are being placed inside of cars and they will deliver the children in cars.

I have no words. I just don’t know what to say. We are still waiting for updates.
Croatia ❤️