I will go van Gogh on this ear

Hello everyone!

I am just having a quiet evening and decided to post a little bit something. A few days everything has been a bit more quiet for me because I have problems with my left ear. I barely hear anything and I almost overslept my alarm today because I can’t hear well.

I don’t know what’s happening with my ear because I am in Zagreb and my doctor is in Zabok and I went here in Zagreb to see a doctor on Sunday. In Croatia you have emergency rooms of course but you also have like doctor offices that are on duty. Major cities such as Zagreb also have dentists which work on the weekend and so on. I don’t know how to explain the Croatian health system well because I don’t own that vocabulary to be honest.

So I went there on Sunday explained that this ear thing was causing issues and it hurt. I also work as an agent in a call center, I can’t be half deaf. The nurse was getting on my nerves with explaining that I shouldn’t have come because this isn’t an emergency. I got a bit irritated and told her that I didn’t come to an emergency room but to a doctors office and I have the right to do so if I have a health issue. I understand that it’s advisable to avoid doctor offices now but I cannot examine my ear on my own and I am stuck in Zagreb until Sunday. So, I won’t be able to go to my personal doctor until Monday.

So she lets me in and the doctors checks out my ear and says that due to the symptoms there’s a really big chance that I have an inflamed ear but she couldn’t see because my ear was also severely clogged which is why I am half deaf. I don’t know if you ever had a clogged ear but you cannot solve this on your own. The doctor has to take like a big syringe and wash out your ear. People tend to sometimes try this on their own but you can mess up your ear, balance center… And then the truth came. It was a very big problem that I came there with a possible inflamed ear because they did not have the equipment to solve it. They didn’t have the syringe to wash out my ear and bring back my gift of hearing and that caused them to be unable to actually see is my ear inflammed. According to them, it was not an emergency for which they have equipment and according to me THAT’S WHY I CAME TO A DOCTOR’S OFFICE NOT AN EMERGENCY ROOM!

I am angry, half deaf, the ear situation is also causing issues with my throat and nose. It’s a mess. And it’s also uncomfortably hot in Croatia. Like I literally work from home and am sweating while sitting and typing. It’s awful.

Don’t you just love when I come and post a little bit and I go on a whole rant? Maybe I should start making videos where I just randomly talk now that I made a YT channel for the vacation vlog. I am really glad I got the courage to do something like that. It was a really big step out of my comfort zone.

To end this rant about my ear on a positive note, I found an amazing singer on YT. I don’t know how I’ve never heard of her before. I just wanted to share her with you. Last time I got this obsessed with someone, it was Lewis Capaldi. Check her out! She made a cover of my favorite song and below I will also link her original song.

This is it for me now guys. Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

Last poem by Luna: Poem #333
Our First Travel Vlog: Vacation Vlog – Island of Krk, Croatia

 

Poem #140

There are lyrics that don’t get to you.
There are songs that hit you right in the heart.
There are verses that depict your life.
And there are words you left unspoken because
you were scared they might tear you apart.

Poem #131

I paused the playlist of songs
telling me I can do it.
Silence lingered in the room.
I realized I needed it more than oxygen.
The upbeat music couldn’t beat me out of my skin.
I had to transform in order to live.