My life

Today kind of sucks

I got my period.
My boyfriend is self-isolating.
I miss my mommy.
I ruined my lunch and now I feel sick.
Today is not Friday.
Has this been too much info for you? I have no shame, my online friends are my only friends now.

How is your day going? 

So, my definition of this day is shit happens. And also, pesto is just….not my cup of anything. I don’t know why I thought that would be the food for me and I ruined a perfectly good plate of pasta. Since its 1 PM here and the day for me has been cancelled, I decided to order food because I just can’t. There are just days when the world should give you a break and let you be in bed, watch movies and get paid to do it. Am I right?! 

So, I am a mess today and very negative but that’s okay. Shit happens. I don’t know where this post is going, just wanted to air out my frustrations to someone. This pesto is messing with my stomach and I didn’t even eat it properly because I spit it out and everything around me now smells like basil.  

I can’t. Done. Gone. Pray for my stomach and may the delivery man come as soon as possible with my food because the last thing my angry ass needs now is to turn into a hangry ass.  

But I have to list at least one positive thing – my skincare products were delivered today morning. Order placed yesterday, products delivered today – this is the type of service I love and I love my Skintegra (the name of the brand) and they made my day. Even had a little Merry Christmas card in the box. I love them! 

When I am done with my shift I am going to take my long, daily walk, come home, watch some Netflix and hope the rest of my week is better and that all my deliveries come by Friday. Amen.  

Kids, don’t eat pesto.  

Sending love and positive vibes,

My life

Let’s buy it all!

So I am kind of lonely and it sucks and I realized I have a very unhealthy way of coping with that sucky feeling.

Shopping. To be more specific – online shopping

My paycheck is coming tomorrow and I am scared it will be gone before I blink because I have my carts full, ready to press the fucking place order button so I can make myself feel better. I don’t know if I should address this issue or start making more money and continue to heal my emotional mess with new things. Ladies, what do you think? I did not decide to only ask the ladies because I want to discriminate, but because I know they will understand the struggle.

I actually surprised myself because I am not buying that much clothes, which is usually my vice. I am getting skincare because my skincare collection is looking poor and my face is looking like I just hit puberty. #foreveryoung

Also, the holiday season is upon us and I had one plan this holiday season and that was having a safe Xmas with my family and having a safe New Year with my boyfriend. Because of the restrictions in Croatia I will not be able to see my boyfriend for New Years and I will be spending it alone so I might as well buy myself something to cheer myself up.

Xmas will be every day when the couriers start coming. I should really find a better coping mechanism. And also, since I decided I would like to post more often on Youtube because I really enjoy filming and editing and I already spent money on a camera I cannot afford, that gave me the perfect excuse to buy some equipment. Merry December to me!

So let me know in the comments if you have some unhealthy coping mechanisms so we can be in this together.

I am going to check if all of my carts are ready for tomorrow now because I have nothing better to do.

Sending love and positive vibes