At the end of the day I need
a drink to help relieve the pain.
I need to drown my problems in your arms
but you aren’t here to hold me tight.
The wine is closing in on me
and you’re no longer my lifeline.
I let you tear down my wall and
I ended up buried underneath those bricks.
You spoiled me with your love
and now I don’t know how to live
without being yours.
Every night before sleeping I pour myself a glass of wine
and all of the suden I can feel your hands on my body.
Maybe I should stop drinking wine.
Maybe I should stop sleeping with your shirt on.
Blouse: H&M / Pants: Stradivarius / Shoes: Sandro Rosi
Right now I have a temporary one-month roommate Ivana. She is one of my friends from the university and since both of us still have exams this month we decided to live together to split the costs of rent and yesterday we went to relax ourselves a little bit. We had some cake, went to the Greetings to the Sun and then we went to a bar and drank some wine. When we got back home we downloaded a movie called “Mirror, Mirror” and Ivana made some chocolate souffle. Thank God she knows how to cook because I’m terrible at it!
Yesterday was my birthday and I’ve had two celebrations. One was in Zadar in June and one was this Friday with my friends in my hometown Zabok. On both parties I’ve had so much fun and I just love my friends so much!
In Zadar I celebrated my birthday with my friend Ivana. Before the party both of us went shopping, bought each other presents and bought the food and drinks for the party. We had a private party in Ivana’s apartment and later we were supposed to go out but I just couldn’t because the exams were still going and I was just too tired to go out and dance so I skipped that part.
In Zabok I celebrated with Isabella, Jana and Marta. We drank some cocktails, ate some pizza and then drank some more. i haven’t been with them for a long time and I just had so much fun just talking to them. We really had a lot to say after all that time.
Found this poem that I wrote a while back, it’s actually really old, but I still decided to share it with you. Hope you like it!
Midnight and I’m drunk. Found my peace
in a bottle, looking at the bottom of the cup.
My mind is empty; I’ve wasted all of my
thoughts on you, on us.
Midnight and I’m drunk. I don’t want to
leave this bar. I’ll just pretend that somewhere
in this cigarette fog I’ll find your eyes and they’ll
still have the same shine.
Midnight and I’m drunk wandering the streets
of my empty town. Crossing through red lights and
I don’t care what happens now, just come and
puzzle in the broken pieces you left behind.
Midnight and I’m drunk. Forgive me for all the
messages but you know how I get when the wine
has a hold of me. Could you give me a sign or just
tell me where do I go from now?
Midnight and I’m drunk. The traffic light is blinding my
tired eyes. The only thing I hear is a train that you
used to take home after spending the evening
by my side.
Midnight and I’m drunk catching the last bus
home so I could stare at the bracelet you gave me
the last time you were mine. I’m waiting for daylight
to bring soberness and stop me from running to the past.
Where are your hands to carry me to bed tonight at midnight?
Since Friday I forgot how it is to wake up in the morning and not get prepared for a day of running around. I just tried to balance my studying, university and some sort of a social life.
Last week was the week of languages and there were ambassadors and many other important people on my university and we’ve had many lectures about the Spanish and Portuguese language. I didn’t manage to attend many of them but on Friday I had to because they counted as 25% of my grade.
The lectures were about the Portuguese language and I loved them because I love that language and I’m trying really hard to become good at it. My favorite lecture was by Rodrigo Barros who is a poet, professor and a singer.
He held a beautiful lecture and he sang and played the guitar for us. I just fell in love with the songs. In the evening we all gathered at a park behind a club and had a poetry evening. Again the same professor sang and then a few poets presented their poems. I wasn’t really a fan of their work, wasn’t my cup of tea, but the evening was worth it because of the singing.
I also spend that day with my friend Andrea. We ate some pizza, ice cream, had a drink in the evening and just had a wonderful time together. I really loved spending the day with her. Here’s a few pictures from Friday.