It’s hard to put one foot in front
of the other when you lose faith in yourself.
It’s forced, it’s fake, you do it because
you know you have to and not because
you want to.
Stuck in a place you don’t want to be,
surrounded by people you don’t want to see,
reliving the same nightmare every morning.
Where do the lost go?
Leave the place, leave the city.
One foot in front of the other, maybe you
stumble across the faith you lost.
I know it’s Monday and that generally people don’t like this day but think of it as a start of a new, productive week in which you are going to accomplish a lot! Now for you, who are like me and are half asleep at their job and for the rest of you here are some pics of breakfasts. Oh, the days I actually had time and energy to do such a breakfast in the morning. I hope you like it and that they give you inspiration to start you days with some yummy food.
Sending love and positive vibes,
2018 was a year full of ups and downs. For the ups, my wife and I welcomed our second child into the world, and we were able to buy a house! For the downs, I had to work 60-70 hours a week between two jobs just to get by, and we still racked up several thousand dollars worth of credit card debt. We had much to be thankful for, but we were also barely treading water.
But 2019 has seen a much more positive beat for my family! My novel, a work 6 years in the making, finally got published and has been doing decently well in sales! I got a solid promotion at one of my jobs that allowed me to quit the other one, and it even came with a host of benefits that lightened our monthly financial load. It’s a great job, the kind of thing I’ve been wanting to do for a long time now, and I get more time at home with my family. Our 5 year old graduated Kindergarten and our 1 year old is happy and healthy. We paid off that credit card debt, and are now able to sock away extra money each paycheck.
There are highs and lows in life. Few people ever get to a good place without trudging through a bog of bad times first, and 90% of that fight is your attitude. You gotta look forward to the goal, keep it ever present in mind. There’s one piece of advice my dad handed down to me that stuck, and I’ll pass it on to anyone who reads this, especially if you’re a young adult: your 20’s should suck. You’ll probably have to live on a shoestring budget, passing up on most, if not all, of your wants just to make ends meet. But if you budget well, put in the time and effort, and with a little luck, you’ll get into your 30’s and 40’s with a sound financial base and finally be able to treat yourself. That’s how I’ve lived the eight years since I turned 20, and it’s looking to finally pay off!
There’s only one way to conquer your pain.
Find comfort in it. Take it as a sign that you
still feel, that there’s still fight in you.
When you hurt, you breathe.
When you hurt, you are forced to find healing.
But when you are numb there’s nothing left.
Hurt. Yell. Break. Mend. Hit lower than bottom
and build a staircase out of nothing.
It all happened in a moment.
I caught a glimpse of you, I gazed
into your eyes and saw galaxies.
In a moment I loved you and
in a moment you were gone.
I swear I heard my soul whisper in my
ear: “You know him because
I met him in a different life.”
It always happens when the night falls.
As darkness slowly starts its kingdom over
the sky, it slowly takes over your soul.
You avoid mirrors because you don’t know
what are you going to see in them.
The voice whispers in your ear: “There’s
so much more for you ahead.”
But you, so beautiful and so kind are trapped
in the misery of your own making because of
trying to fit in with the world when you were
born to stand out.