This garden is filled with loneliness
The loneliness is the only thing blossoming here
I have tied myself to a sand castle, filled with thorns.
I can see you coming, making your way to this garden
what is your name? Do you have any place to go?
I can feel your warmth, your heat is real
I can see you pick the blue flower
I want to hold it too, But I can’t
This is my destiny.
You know that I can’t show you me
I can’t face you, because I’m scared
I’m scared you’ll laugh on me
I can’t show you the real me
Can’t expose my vulnerability
I’m scared you’ll run away.
So I decide to put on a mask
Just to come and see you
This fear won’t go, I’m still scared
But I want you.
What I can do is, plant a flower
A pretty flower, that resembles you
As beautiful as you, maybe more
That will breathe as a person
And maybe I can live with that
Because I still want you.
Maybe back then, if I could collect the courage
To stand in front of you
Would things be better now?
Would everything be different?
This castle is collapsing & crashing
I’m screaming, looking at this broken mask
All this while,
I still want you, I still need you.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR-
I am Anoma, aged 22. I am from India, and I am a final year student doing computer engineer. Engineering is to earn the livelihood and writing is to earn that happiness that was missing in my life. I won’t call myself a writer or a poet, because all I do is just spill out whatever comes in my mind without any flow or rhyme but all I can say is writing reduces the burden off my shoulders. It gives me mental peace and when people can relate to what I write, I feel I’ve achieved the purpose of writing. I am a person who finds it very hard to express myself verbally to anyone, until I started writing.
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