What’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make? Why?
I think that one of the hardest decisions I ever had to made was quitting grad school. I was studying Italian and Spanish and I did my bachelors and already on my last year I realized it might have been a mistake and that I won’t be able to build the life I want by having a career in what I loved. Or thought I loved. I think that languages were something I was naturally good at so I clung on to it and I was a dumb 19 year old then. I had no idea what I was doing.
The reason it was hard was because I got a lot of validation and I identified a lot with being a student, not just a university student but high school as well. I always had good grades, strived to be the best. It think it’s the classic story of someone who gets a lot of academic validation and then feel like a part of them is missing when that validation is no longer there.
Studying was a big part of me and I felt horrible when I left it. I lied to myself and everyone else that I had a plan when I absolutely did not. I still don’t, but I got more comfortable with not knowing what the next step is. I actually got back, kind of, to studying and I am getting ready for my certificate in Project Management which is the career I ended up with solely through work. When I left grad school and started working, I realized that I learn far faster and better when I am doing something, instead of learning definitions and theory. I think that was one of the reasons why I was good with languages. I cannot for the life of me explain grammar rules, but I just know how something is supposed to be and sound and which verb in which tense is supposed to be there.
I am getting off topic here, as always. In any case, I think that quitting grad school was very difficult for me but that decision opened many doors for me and forced me, in a way, to prove myself to myself and validate myself instead of seeking it from others (if that makes sense). Difficult decisions are often scary and always necessary.
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