Coffee Date with Luna: Updates

Hello everyone and welcome to another Coffee Date with Luna! 

Usually, I have some specific theme I write about in these Coffee Dates but this is just a random life update. I have been away from the blog for a while now because I have been working in the office. As you know I have been working from home for a very, very long time and the past two weeks I have been back in Zagreb and in the office. Now I am going to work from home again. In order to have fewer people in the office we take turns every two weeks with work from home. 

This was one of the reasons why I was away from the blog. I was adapting to being out of quarantine, back in Zagreb and it just started feeling normal and then there was a spike in COVID-19 cases. Zagreb has the most cases in Croatia which was to be expected. A few days ago it became mandatory to wear a mask in public transportation and cabs. So there’s a little update on the COVID situation in Croatia, how are your countries doing? 

The quarantine in Croatia has ended because we managed to put the situation under control but also because it is the summer and the Croatian economy is centered around tourism.(VISIT CROATIA, GIVE US YOUR MONEY. jk). I am also planning to visit the coast this summer with my boyfriend.  This won’t be some YOLO vacation; we will keep safe and avoid large crowds of people. It will be more of a quiet vacation. We will go to the beach, maybe go to a restaurant for dinner because it’s my birthday soon and that will be about it. Nothing big, just taking some time away from Zagreb, my work, his university.   

These two weeks working in the office really benefited me when it comes to mental health. Since I travel with a tram to my work, I was scared of catching the virus but being in the office was so relaxing. I missed my work team, joking around with them. I was a lot less stressed about work since working from the office again because we can joke about work, talk, help each other out. Just being around people made it easier than it was while I was working from home. I am actually a bit sad because I won’t see them for three weeks because I will be working from home for a week and then I will go on vacation for two weeks.  

This is pretty much a little bit about my very boring life. Let me know in the comments how are you doing, what is the situation in your country, what is new with you? We haven’t had a coffee date for a long time. In the last Coffee Date you were all so supportive and kind and thank you very much for always being here for me. Also, some of you told me you would enjoy story times so I am currently working on that. I am also considering creating videos for story times, I think it would be interesting and a new hobby for me since I know nothing about creating videos. I was thinking to film a few on my phone and I know it won’t be best quality but I want to see if I can commit to this before considering buying a camera.  

I will stop talking now and be waiting for all of your comments, I’ll reply to everyone as soon as possible. Also, let me know what you would like to discuss next on our Coffee dates! 

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna 

 

Coffee Date with Luna: 20 something crisis

Hello Everyone! 

It has been a long time since I just posted on the blog, had a talk with you or in this case, a cup of coffee. There is a reason for that. I have been going through a bit of a crisis that I do not know how to explain to myself or to others. 

I have a good job which keeps me financially stable, recently I met someone very special in my life, since I started working from home I have had more time to spend with my family, I have great friends and the list could go on about the things that are really going for me right now and still I am so miserable. There is a constant feeling of something missing in my life and it’s eating me away.  

I know that my career choices have a lot to do with my unhappiness. My goal in life was not and is not to be a customer service agent. I do like this job and I absolutely adore the people I am working with but there is still that feeling that something is missing. I have been in this career crisis on and off for the past 2 years and it’s a normal thing every 20something goes through but I can feel my mental health going to hell fast because I cannot cope with not having a purpose in life. Being aware of the fact that my degree is worthless and that no one wants to hire me in digital marketing because I have no fucking experience is not making this easy on me.  

Yesterday was my one year anniversary of working as a customer service agent. I have been feeling like shit for the last two weeks because I knew that I was reaching that one year at a job that was supposed to be temporary until I get my Digital Marketing certificate so that I can do something I am 100% invested in. But again there is this fear – what if I get into a Digital marketing agency and realize after some time that it’s not what I actually want? What if I just got that certificate to cover up for the fact that I dropped out of grad school without a fucking plan? 

As you can see, I am struggling which is why I haven’t been so active on the blog. I have had problems opening up to people about this because they either do not understand completely what I am saying or hit me with “Do you know how many people lost their job during quarantine and how many people are being paid less because of the COVID situation and how lucky you are right now?”  

Yes, I do know. 

I haven’t been fired, my job was never in question and there were no paycheck cuts in my firm. The only difference for us was that we had to work from home. That is it. Not a single person in the customer care center where I work felt the effects of quarantine when it comes to job security and money and this is amazing and I applaud the company for that.  

I don’t know if I am able to put this nicely, but I do not know how to feel okay and satisfied with my life just because others have it worse. Other people being in bad situations shouldn’t be a standard for me to feel good about myself and about my life but I have often felt under attack if I expressed any of these opinions out loud which made the struggle in my head even worse because it is all in my head. 

And then I opened up my laptop today and decided to write this mess out because this is my safe place and I often stray away from it when I’m in trouble but I am glad to be back. Thank you for putting up with my annoying rant about unhappiness. I know that our Coffee Dates are usually reserved for happy thoughts but I just had to get this off my chest. 

Please do let me know if you experienced similar issues and how did you deal with them? Let’s be the supportive WordPress community that we are.  

Also, we already passed 5,5k followers here on WordPress, my Poetry Bar inbox is full of your submissions so let me know if there’s any type of different content you would like to see on this blog. I publish from 3-5 Poetry Bar works daily, do you want more? Would you like for me to write about the current events, maybe to do story times, do you have some questions for me so we can do a Q&A type post. Tell me all of your wishes down in the comments because, honestly, I need some content ideas and working on this blog has always helped me work through my personal issues.  

I love you all, thank you for being so amazing and so supportive! 

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna 

Coffee Date with Luna

Hello everyone and welcome to the first Coffee Date with Luna!

Like my cup says, ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE AND MORE COFFEE!

Today, I will actually be recreating a post I did last year around this time and it’s in regards to being grateful. This year I had a really lovely Christmas with my family which is not something I thought possible 10 years ago. I was very open an honest about my domestic abuse story. My father was an alcoholic and he had mental health issues and he would beat us up, verbally abuse us and the cops were no strangers to us even on Christmas Eve and Christmas Morning. I don’t want to get into this story, I have a few posts about it but it’s important for this now.

So instead of being locked up in a room with my mother and sister with little food to eat and no Christmas tree this year we had two Christmas trees, happiness, freedom, a lot of food and we even went to Church together. I am not a person that goes to church but I know it’s important to my mom and I am happy she got that wish fulfilled this year.

As someone who grew up in domestic abuse and borderline poverty I never thought I would have a job that paid well, an apartment, a bachelor’s degree and all of the other things I have today. To be quite honest, I am grateful I made it out alive from my childhood.

Here’s where my copying of the last year post comes to life. Since the end of the year is close, let’s be grateful. We did this last year, remember?

I would like you to list things you are grateful for in your life in the comments and, for this year’s edition of gratefulness, you can also write down your goal or goals for the upcoming year. Let’s spread some love, positivity, support and gratefulness in that comment section!

I am going to start with the things I am grateful for this year: my family, my jobs, having the courage to pursue a different career path, all of you lovely followers here on Luna, walking away from people who were bad for my mental health, ummmmm… If I have some more, I’ll add in the comments.

My goals for 2020: building a career in digital marketing, working on myself as a person, strengthening our community here on Luna.

Let me hear you now! I can’t wait to read what you are grateful for and what your goals are for 2020. Since, like I did last year, I will make a blog post before New Year with all of your comments, make sure to also leave your blog link in the comment so I can tag you on our Gratitude post 2019!

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

Poem #224

You sit in silence on the terrace sipping your coffee.
You try to convince yourself that fresh air will
stop this feeling of suffocation.
Haven’t you realized by now it’s all in your head?

I fell down.

I fell today. Not in a methaporical way. I seriously fell down in public during rush hour on a train station.

Let me walk you through my amazing morning. So, I came to Zagreb and I was going down the stairs to get some lunch for today. You can bet you ass I was on my phone while walking. I missed a step and in a matter of seconds I just felt pain in my knees and ankle as I hit the ground.

Jackie Chan has got nothing on the reflexes I discovered I had in that moment. In 0.5 seconds I just bounced right back and continued walking as if nothing happened. I actually started believing that I didn’t actually fall down because everything happened so fast but then the pain in my knees and ankle reminded me of my little encounter with the ground.

Please will someone tell me that if you fall down like an idiot in public it means you will have a really good day or that something good will happen? Give me some hope because my day so far has had a shitty start.

At least I have my coffee. Considering my luck I will probably spill it on myself. And the Kinder Bueno is here to comfort me because well… I need it.

Positivity Press #12

Hello world!

I know it’s Monday and that generally people don’t like this day but think of it as a start of a new, productive week in which you are going to accomplish a lot! Now for you, who are like me and are half asleep at their job and for the rest of you here are some pics of breakfasts. Oh, the days I actually had time and energy to do such a breakfast in the morning. I hope you like it and that they give you inspiration to start you days with some yummy food.

 

Sending love and positive vibes,

Luna

Positivity Press #2

I decided to do a post for the Positivity Press as well! Today I did a stupid thing. Usually in the bar where I work we have two days off during the week but last month I was kind of low on cash so I asked my boss to give me an extra day to earn some more money and I had only one day off.

Yesterday I was free and I thought that the “one day off” rule still applied to me. Guess what – It didn’t! I woke up at 4:30 in the morning and came to work only to hear from my colleague that I was not on the schedule for today. That’s right. I came to work on my day off.

We all had a good laugh, the boss came and sent me home and it was all wrapped in just plain laughter. I thought I would be pissed off because I got up early on my day off but actually I feel great and am very grateful for doing such a stupid thing because now I have the whole day ahead of me to enjoy it to the fullest, get a lot done. Currently I am enjoying a very large cup of coffee on my terrace and just breathing in some fresh air. I hope you all are doing great today. So this is my positivity today – I got a good laugh and made everyone in the bar laugh today with my mistake. I am absolutely sure they won’t let me forget I came to work on my day off!
Sending love and positive vibes (and the great smell of my coffee),
Luna

 

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Poem #134

She was the first sip of
coffee in the morning, the
first snow on Christmas,
a kiss when you need it,
a comedy show when you’re
sad, a source of pleasure
late at night. She was
everything sweet and kind and you made her so, so bitter and so, so sad.

Being grateful

Throughout the day we thank our god a million times for something that happens good to us but most of the time it’s just empty words without any meaning. Today I decided to begin to actually be grateful for the little things in life which I take for granted because I honestly believe my life will be more fulfilled if I perceive some small, everyday moments as great life gifts.

I am grateful that I have a small circle of good friends which are always there for me and that I actually have friends who can sit with me and drink coffee for hours and just talk. Drinking coffee together is something me and my friends do often. In Croatia an hour and a half long coffee drinking is a part of our culture. Take-out coffee is not so popular with us because we like to sit in a bar and drink our coffee with our friends and we are so used to this that we take it for granted. I decided to be grateful for having friends to do this little coffee drinking tradition with.

There is one special friend I have. She is my best friend and the person that knows me best and she is my mother. I’m not some mommy’s little princess but my mother is such a special person, she’s my warrior and I’m so grateful to have such a strong role model in my life. She taught me what love is, that I can survive everything and that I’m strong enough and good enough to reach my full potential in life. She made so many sacrifices for me and I owe her to be the person she always believed I was.

I am grateful for every morning in which I have time to eat a healthy, delicious breakfast. I’m a breakfast enthusiast, breakfast is everything but I stopped appreciating it as I did before. From now on, every time I have my oatmeal or sandwich in the morning I will remember to be grateful to be able to enjoy it.

Zadar is such a lovely, warm, beautiful town and I enjoyed it a lot until I got used to it. I forgot to appreciate the sea, the bridge, the Greetings to the Sun, the Sea Organ, the talkative people, the beautiful sights and beaches, the old town… Most of the people who visit Zadar are left amazed with it and I live in this beautiful city so I’m going to be more grateful for all that it has to offer. Click here to check out some photos of Zadar if you want!

I have been going through some hardship lately and I talked about it in my post Self-doubt and Lack of Motivation. I am grateful for all the problems I went through, all the nights spent crying and for every time I thought I won’t be able to go forward anymore because if I hadn’t gone through all of that I would never be able to start building a stronger version of myself as I am doing right now. This collapse I survived made me realize I am strong enough and that hardships are here to make us remember what we are capable of so I’m grateful for the good and the bad, the darkness and the light.

I could go on forever with this list but I’m going to stop here. I hope you liked this and tell me in the comments what are you grateful for!

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Organization and morning routine

Sleepy is the word to describe me today. I’ve been having trobules sleeping because I spend a lot of time in the evening in front of my laptop studying or writing that I can’t fall asleep and in the morning I’m just a mess. I managed to crawl out of bed today an hour and a half before I had to leave the house to go to my lecture. I woke up at 6:15 because I had a morning lecture and despite feeling miserable for not being able to keep my eyes open it feels great to see I’ve checked off everything off of my to-do list.

Again, I’m still working on getting myself out of my dark place so I decided to establish a healthy morning routine to get me in a good mood. I kick off my day with some morning stretches. Afterwards I make my breakfast which mostly consists of oat meal and a strong coffee. I do all of this with some good background music. Since I study Spanish I’m pretty crazy about the music from Latin America and my morning playlist currently contains singers like Maluma, Ozuna, Gente de Zona, JBalvin…

When I’m done with breakfast I get dressed and then I meditate for approximately 15 minutes. Today I used Vishen Lakhiani’s 6 phase meditation. Then I walked to my university for 40 minutes to get some LISS workout in my morning and I was done.

Organization is right now my way of keeping myself reassured that I have some control over my life. I’ve downloaded an app to my laptop and my phone where I write my to-do list, shopping plans, simple errands etc. It just feels amazing to see that I’ve checked everything off of my to-do list before going to bed. I’m exhausted but it still feels great and I honestly think I will be able to pull myself out of this by just making simple steps.

Writing everything here makes me feel better and I hope I’m not bumming you all out and being boring. As soon as I write a poem or have some other idea, I’ll post it up immediately! Be sure to leave me a comment or DM me on Instagram if you are going through something similar so we can help each other.

Love you all!

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