Feel it all

Hello everyone! 

It has been a long time since I made an outfit post, so here is one.  I wore this today while going to Zagreb and leaving my house after a long time and don’t worry, I had a good reason. 

outfit

I went to Zagreb today because I had to go to my firm to sign some papers and get some equipment for working from home. I didn’t quite realize how much I missed just stepping into that building, feeling like I am going to work. It made things feel normal after a very long time and then I actually stepped into my office. It was empty. The whole floor was just empty. There were a few agents working and some of the main managers were there but that was it. The office which is usually filled with a bunch of people who are talking, laughing was silent.  

It felt so strange. I have been home for a month and I kept track of everything that was going on but this was the first time that I really felt it. We were in quarantine. There was something that we couldn’t see that was controlling our lives and made us listen to the news every day to hear how many more patients we got today. 

I am preaching about positivity and keeping sane during quarantine so much that I forgot that it is okay and necessary to feel the fear and the anxiety and the loneliness that comes with this. We need to acknowledge all feelings, the good and the bad and confront them. The more we stick together while being apart, the faster this will all be over. 

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna 

My Uber driver was drunk

Hello everyone!

Let me tell you what an interesting and borderline life endangering weekend I had.

So on Friday night me and some of my work friends agreed to go and grab a few drinks. We have been trying to go out for a drink for a very long time and finally we managed to arrange everything. We got all pretty and went drinking. You know I have to post my outfit now.

So after three rounds my friend was like, let’s go somewhere else. I was absolutely against partying that night because I had to get up early in the morning and go from Zagreb to Zabok for my mom’s birthday and also I am on a two week vacation currently.

We ended up going hunting for a club to have a bit more fun at but it was quite hard since it was close to midnight and everything was full. We looked, and I want to emphasize that we just looked at a bar, and decided not to go in because it was a very small place. All of the sudden what I presume was the fucking owner of that fish bowl came and literally told us to get in, that there was a table. My friends were very excited and I felt like vomiting because I know how small bars like that work because I used to work at one. My bedroom was bigger than that place, their offer of drinks was terrible and the DJ sucked.  I am using the term DJ very generously here. He was a guy with a laptop and an updated version of Winamp.

I was made fun of a lot because I just stood there like a fucking plant, didn’t want to dance and in general hated that place. When I decided to go home, I had to get me an Uber. When I got into the Uber, I told the driver again where we are headed and he started driving and this caused issues for me because I couldn’t get out of the fucking Uber while he was driving and he was slightly drunk and annoying. He started to hit on me and literally told me that he will stop at a parking lot so that we can switch places and I would drive. First of all, I am a terrible driver and the fact that I drank that night wouldn’t improve my driving skills. Second of all, I AM NOT THE UBER DRIVER YOU ARE! I don’t know what was up with that guy, but it was just so uncomfortable to be near him.

It was just terrifying at one point because he started to drive very fast. I survived and now I have to live with the notion that this lunatic knows where he can find me in Zagreb . GOD!

I spent Saturday with my family and it was just great. I was a bit hungover and tired but I pulled through. My mom made a lot of yummy food and we just chilled and talked. And my mom know how to prepare a lunch!

That’s it for me now, I hope you have a lovely week.

Sending love and positive vibes

Luna

My sinuses are killing me

Guys, I am ill.

I feel like I have been hit by a bus, the bus then put in reverse to drive over me and then he went straight and ran over me once more. I HATE THIS!

Every single year I get a sinus infection. It’s an annual thing for me but this is the first time I got the fever with it. It all started on Saturday and the fever came yesterday. I got really scared I might be getting the flu so I went to see a doctor here in Zagreb. They told me that I am at risk of getting the flu and that I should stay home, in bed, resting and drinking lots of fluids. I also got some medication to control my fever but she didn’t give me an antibiotic for my sinuses. Now I have to take my ill ass back to Zabok to see my doctor to get antibiotics and the paperwork for my sick days of work.

There’s nothing like hearing you are at risk of getting the flu and then going to a doctor’s waiting room filled with ill people. Great. Just great. I have no idea how am I going to endure a train ride from Zagreb to Zabok since my head feels like it’s going to explode all the time but I have to pull through.

I was actually planning on going to work today and ignoring the doctor a bit but when I got up in the morning I couldn’t open my eyes fully because of the pressure in my head. I get dizzy all the time and I also cannot concentrate on anything so I spent the day in bed.

I am sorry for the lack of posts today in The Poetry Bar but I am just feeling dead. I decided to stick to my “one post a day” routine so here is me complaining about my illness and throwing in a random outfit picture because I don’t know how to write poems about my sinuses.

I hope your week started better than mine.

Sending love and positive vibes
Luna

The Routine

Hello everyone!

It has been a while since I posted some original content and I haven’t been around lately so I would like to apologize for not replying to your comments. The last few days were… routine and depression. I haven’t been myself for the last few days, i think it has been more than a week. I am just at that place in life where I am stuck. I know that many people my age who start to work and enter “adulthood” experience this issue, but I just feel like my job and some life choices are taking its toll on me.

I have a bachelor’s, I have a certificate in Digital marketing and I am not working in either of my two areas. I am not working on a job where I can use and practice my Spanish and Italian and I am also not in any area of Digital Marketing. Wherever I send my CV, the reply is that I do not have enough work experience. I am obviously not going to gain any either.

Currently, I am just trying my best to asses and change my mindset because it’s not a good one. So there you have it. I am always trying to be open abut struggles I go through because I know someone out there is going through the same thing and I don’t want them to feel alone. We are in this together!

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

Rise and shine

Rise and shine, it’s time to conquer the week!

My life has been shitty in all aspects lately but I am fighting it with extreme positivity and looking like I am not stressy depress lately.

outfit

I have to force myself to be in this state, but I am doing it. As soon as I manage to resolve some things that are happening, you know damn well I will post a whole description with details here. Hopefully it will be soon.

I woke up early today, even though I start working at noon. I decided to wake up early to install some discipline back into my life because I have been lacking it. I am also getting back to working out at least two times a week because I really need to blow off steam every now and then. I think I should start going to the gym before I start taking my issues out on people.

The reason why I need to get some discipline back into my life is because I need to start studying again. You all know I got my certificate in Digital Marketing but you also know I am nowhere near working in that field so I am studying at home to enhance my knowledge and skills so that when a job opportunity presents itself I can be ready. Also, I need to start focusing on my Italian and Spanish. It has been more than a year since I left my university and I can feel my language competence just going away. I put a lot on my plate but focusing on work sometimes helps me gain clarity regarding some issues going on in my life.

Anyways that’s it from me today. Poetry posts will be up on the blog as always. Don’t forget to send your submissions for The Poetry Bar to poetrybar1@gmail.com

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

Bombshell

I know I talk a lot of shit about my job but yesterday, on a Sunday, I took my no life-single-workaholic ass back to the office to do some overtime because I am a broke person who loves to buy clothes. I worked for five hours and then it was movie and beer time.

Since I was working overtime, I decided to mourn the death of my youth in this all black outfit:

all black outfit

I have wanted to see Bombshell for a long time and yesterday me and my friend went to see it. I am all about #girlpower, I support the #metoo movement and I was really looking forward to seeing the movie and I did love it. The actresses were so good at portraying the characters, I especially loved Margot Robbie but in some parts of the movie I just felt… I don’t really know how to describe it.

The mix between the plot being based on a real story and the amazing acting just got under my skin. All of it seemed so real, I know that it was but…

I hate it when I don’t have words to describe how I feel since I am a writer. The movie really got to me and it also got me thinking about how many women went through similar experiences and never got a chance to speak up and how many women are going through it now. Will I go through that? The movie just left me with a bunch of questions floating around in my head. According to me, everyone needs to see it and everyone needs to be taught about sexual harassment from a young age because people do not understand how plain comments can affect women and make them feel like they are in danger.

Now, who has seen the movie, what is your take on it?

Also, is there a topic you would like to discuss this week in Coffee date with Luna?

Sending love and positive vibes,

Luna

Back to work

Hello!

I have been living my best life and now reality is bitch slapping me. I have to go back to work. I can’t. I am already in Zagreb but still denying the fact that I have to go back to work today.

I had such a horrible night. I couldn’t fall asleep. I think I got about 2 hours of sleep, if that much. I was all over the bed, got up a million times, played music to fall asleep and when I finally got some sleep in my mother was already calling me to get up because I was leaving early for Zagreb.

I am so tired and so exhausted but I am trying to stay positive. It’s one of my decisions. It’s not like a New Year’s resolution but with this year I have some general decisions and some time-limited decisions. I am just trying to get my shit together, focus on my work and what’s important to me, focus on my self and work on some of my problems such as procrastination. Maybe I’ll even make a post about my resolutions, if you want.

Today I am just going basic because the strength in me is gone. I love this shirt because it’s so cute and it gives some color and uniqueness to a basic outfit.

back to work outfit

Since I am working again it will sometimes be hard for me to keep up with my posting schedule but please do call me out if I get lazy. Just write down in the comments that you would like more content and I will do my best to get everything up and uploaded. In this year I am looking forward to your new Poetry Bar submissions and to new authors joining us. For new authors who do not know what The Poetry Bar was please do read how to do a Poetry Bar submission.

I am off to be a productive member of society. Yay.

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna