So I am kind of lonely and it sucks and I realized I have a very unhealthy way of coping with that sucky feeling.
Shopping. To be more specific – online shopping
My paycheck is coming tomorrow and I am scared it will be gone before I blink because I have my carts full, ready to press the fucking place order button so I can make myself feel better. I don’t know if I should address this issue or start making more money and continue to heal my emotional mess with new things. Ladies, what do you think? I did not decide to only ask the ladies because I want to discriminate, but because I know they will understand the struggle.
I actually surprised myself because I am not buying that much clothes, which is usually my vice. I am getting skincare because my skincare collection is looking poor and my face is looking like I just hit puberty. #foreveryoung
Also, the holiday season is upon us and I had one plan this holiday season and that was having a safe Xmas with my family and having a safe New Year with my boyfriend. Because of the restrictions in Croatia I will not be able to see my boyfriend for New Years and I will be spending it alone so I might as well buy myself something to cheer myself up.
Xmas will be every day when the couriers start coming. I should really find a better coping mechanism. And also, since I decided I would like to post more often on Youtube because I really enjoy filming and editing and I already spent money on a camera I cannot afford, that gave me the perfect excuse to buy some equipment. Merry December to me!
So let me know in the comments if you have some unhealthy coping mechanisms so we can be in this together.
I am going to check if all of my carts are ready for tomorrow now because I have nothing better to do.
Sending love and positive vibes