Hello everyone!
And the award for the most absent blogger goes to yours truly! In the words of Britney Spears “Oops I did it again”
But I am back now. I know that usually our coffee dates are on Saturday but I guess I was so bad at blogging that I actually couldn’t keep up with my own schedule. Today I feel like talking about the actual reason why I have been so absent lately. You know I was ill for a while and then I got back to Zagreb and back to my job. And then I worked. And then I worked. And then I worked some more.
Sometimes I have a feeling like my job and becoming a “grownup” is seriously shutting down any source of creativity in me. I had some writers blocks and I know how much it sucks but this is something else. By the time I do everything that needs to be done, do my shift, stress the hell out because of my job, come home and get to my job number two I just want to get to my bed.
I feel like my life became lifeless which is causing my creativity and writing inspiration to deteriorate. Since writing has been a big part of my life since I was a kid, this feels like a whole part of my personality is just fading away. It is sometimes really scary to feel your, let’s say, childhood dreams being taken away from you because you have to do this thing called being an adult. I know I sound like a kid saying this but at the end of the day those things we dreamed of as children come back to haunt us when we start becoming everything we said we never would be.
I have been taking care of myself for a long time now, earning my money, paying my bills, just being an adult but then I stop and go to my blog. There were periods when I would publish daily and my inspiration was just at a high level and now? If I wrote about my life, it would be pretty empty. The type of poetry I write when I am feeling down and it has been like this for months now.
I thought about making some changes to turn things around, maybe even travel somewhere but then the questions start: Can I afford this, do I have any vacation days left, who would I go with since my friends are busy etc. It’s like with my creativity being gone, my brain starts to think more of obstacles than opportunities when I want to do or change something.
This isn’t the type of Coffee Date you are used to, but currently these are some very haunting thoughts I have been fighting with. Have you ever thought about this, experienced such issues? I would really love it for you to share your experience and opinions in the comment section and also let me know what you would like to discuss next in our Coffee Dates.
Thank you for reading this very weird post of just my thoughts and troubles with growing up.
Sending love and positive vibes
Luna
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I have, and am dealing with those thoughts and issues now…need to find that happy medium. Which I am struggling to do. As long as I am able to pay the bills, I can take the time to at least try and figure things out. I know where I am supposed to be, but “other people” seem to think they know what’s best.
I do know this…if I am happy (and sane) then life is peaceful. I’m not as young as I used to be and just want to be happy
Don’t even get me started on other people and their opinions 🤦
Keep going, keep doing your thing and keep smiling ☺️
thank you
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There’s lots of inspiration everywhere without having to leave home let alone the country.
I wake up every morning blank only to scroll through Instagram and WordPress for a minute while listening to music until suddenly….boom.
I am flooded with thoughts and emotions to express all day again.
One could say online is like a giant buffet table of inspirational food to extract from.
Thank you for the advice!
I was exactly where you were a year ago. I too have dreamed of being a writer and have wrote since I was a child. Self publishing my book of poetry early last year was a major highlight. My poems just came to me quickly without much effort on my part. Then I got really caught up with work. I felt lifeless, like my world no longer had color in it. I realized I was letting my ego win too often, keeping me safe and not allowing me to grow in the fire room I needed to. I reassessed my job and made some lifestyle changes.
I don’t think this post was weird at add ll but a processing of what you’re feeling right now. I hope you find more time to honor your talent and nurture your inner child. We all must stay connected to that part of ourselves. It’s crucially important for inner peace and happiness 😊
Congrats on your book and I am so glad to hear you had strenght to do the necessary changes regarding your job to stay happy and positive! Most of us fear change and just stay in the same place paralyzed by fear.
Thank you very much for being so supportive ❤️
You’re welcome, it’s my pleasure 🤗 fear is a motherf*cker!! It can literally keep you a prisoner in your own body. I know because I lived with an impending sense of doom for a few years. I didn’t leave my house or have a desire for anything.
Therefore, I firmly believe in shifting into love. When you can accept and realize the situation without resistance, oh boy!! The possibilities for change open straight away.
I’m so happy we have met here on WordPress, you are so wonderfully supportive my friend and I enjoy your posts😊
Good read – can relate – death – divorce – deceit – doesn’t make for the happiest camper. I have good and bad days – want to write – want to quit – something inside (drive) plus nice interaction with various bloggers keeps me returning and learning. An older woman’s advice: “Be the best you at the given moment.” 🙂 🙂
Thank you for your comment! Just keep going, you are stronger than you think ❤️
Love your blog have a read of mine it will make you gasp your coffee out. More posts please
Honestly I just figured you were still battling the sinus infection and the poetry bar was your way of self preservation, better to post something than nothing when beset with illness 🙂
The Poetry Bar is very important to me, I will always find a way to post all of the lovely guest posts ❤️
At 45 I have the luxury of having writing going back to when I was 17 – creativity does change, but as a human being so do you. It depends what you want your writing to do, if it’s a safe space, a place to be you with compromises then i think your creativity will change but not dim. I also feel that often, when you are young, creativity can come from a more unhealthy place. Being a adult is just a phrase, you are still you and you are still creative.
Thank you so much for this comment, it’s very thought provoking and inspiring ❤️
I could feel you. I’m mostly stuck up by the same thoughts whenever I try to step up for a change.
Change is something we all need and I don’t think it’s scary. The thoughts provoked by the notion of change are what scares us and we need to learn how to control them before they control us.
That’s amazingly said. I totally agree 🙂
It’s always reassuring to know we are not alone in what we experience, on both sides… they say misery loves company but so does happiness. Thanks for sharing. I too, have felt the emptiness and the sense of overwhelm at life. One thing that I know for me is that sometimes being a big kid is far more cathartic both for fun and perspective than worrying about how good I am at “adulting”. Hang in there – we are all out here wanting to read what you come up with next 😉
Thank you for being so supportive. I always try to stay in touch with my inner child but it is just a struggle and it always will be. I guess I an still improvising all of this growing up thing 😂
Very relatable. Job take away most of our time and energy. After job, I don’t want to do anything except sleeping. On holidays, I feel like if I just want to rest and enjoy. If I write it takes whole day.
Really enjoy your writing 🙏🏼