Permission

I gave you permission

You reached into my interior mess
prised apart the tangle
of my insides

I gave you permission
to dissect my soul
to separate organ
strand by strand

You found the parasite
deep in the bowels
of my innermost parts

I gave you permission
to open me wide
to expose the secrets
that within me hide

You cut me free
from that hollow death
allowed me to breathe

I gave you permission
to save my life
to penetrate the depths
of hidden cancer

You scooped the cradle
of creativity from within;
you made me barren

I gave you permission
to sift through
to penetrate visceral shields
to touch the seat of emotion

You reconnected me
fastened vessel to vessel
left me with an eight inch scar

I gave you permission
to perform the necessary violation
I gave up the potential for life
in order to live

You saved me.

© Freya Pickard 2022

Freya Pickard is a cancer survivor who writes dark fantasy tales and creates expressive poetry in order to rest the prose side of her brain.

https://dragonscaleclippings.wordpress.com

https://spillwords.com/author/freyapickard/

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