I gave you permission

You reached into my interior mess
prised apart the tangle
of my insides

I gave you permission
to dissect my soul
to separate organ
strand by strand

You found the parasite
deep in the bowels
of my innermost parts

I gave you permission
to open me wide
to expose the secrets
that within me hide

You cut me free
from that hollow death
allowed me to breathe

I gave you permission
to save my life
to penetrate the depths
of hidden cancer

You scooped the cradle
of creativity from within;
you made me barren

I gave you permission
to sift through
to penetrate visceral shields
to touch the seat of emotion

You reconnected me
fastened vessel to vessel
left me with an eight inch scar

I gave you permission
to perform the necessary violation
I gave up the potential for life
in order to live

You saved me.

© Freya Pickard 2022

Freya Pickard is a cancer survivor who writes dark fantasy tales and creates expressive poetry in order to rest the prose side of her brain.

Insides is one woman’s journey through cancer, chemotherapy and beyond. This poetry collection is just 99c until 31st March 2022 and is available from:


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6 thoughts on “Permission

  1. Marvellously penned

    1. Freya Pickard Author March 7, 2022 — 1:31 pm

      Thank you for reading, TanvirKaur!

  2. Freya Pickard Author March 7, 2022 — 1:36 pm

    Thank you so much Luna for publishing this poem – it means so much to me!

  3. Brilliant, Freya!

  4. Chris Sendrowski March 29, 2022 — 4:40 pm

    I love Freya’s work. Both her pros and poetry are eloquently written with just the right ebb and flow necessary for a wonderful dance of words. Check… her… out!

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