Oh, I have a good one for this. If there was one change about myself that I would do, it would be to stop overthinking and spiraling and obsessing, especially about stuff I have no influence over. This little habit of mine is why I sometimes take full-blown brakes from watching the news and skip right through every tiktok that seems to talk about current event and politics.
It just kills me and takes away my free time. There was recently a corruption scandal in Croatia (which is nothing new, our government is shit), and I couldn’t stop thinking and obsessing about it for days because I couldn’t rationalize some things that were done. The minister of health who was arrested came out of the police van with such a fucking smile on his face that whenever I watched that video, I could not stop myself from getting angry and just trying to figure out WHAT THE FUCK WAS HE LAUGHING ABOUT WITH HANDCUFFS ON HIS HANDS? I mean, he was probably laughing because he will get away with it, as they all do but it killed me.
My overthinking and the need to overanalyze situations is not always a negative thing. I think it keeps me safe sometimes. Last week I went running after work and the problem is that it gets dark pretty early now. I was running and there was a man playing with his son on the field around which I was running. I spot two guys who looked kind of suspicious and they decided to stand in the darkest corner and they were having a smoke.
The second I saw that, I went into analyze mode. I wasn’t new to the area, it’s my usual running spot and I immediately thought of every exit from the grounds and calculated how tired I am and if they would be a danger to me. The second that father and son started packing their things, so did I. I didn’t run the 10km I wanted but I felt safer.
So I wouldn’t completely change my overthinking, but I definitely wish I could tone it down significantly. I just don’t want to be awake in bed with my mind running in circles.
What’s one change you would do?
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Yes I overthink about lots of things and sometimes wish I was one of those people who do not think about anything!
Yes, I am a little bit jealous of people who can shut their brain off and not overthink everything. I wish my answer to “What are you thinking about?” can be “nothing” just once.
I think it would be the same for me. I overthink things a lot too. It has winded down a lot since I started taking some supplements, mostly L-Theanine, but it would be good to just let shit go and don’t dwell on it like a lunatic.
Still, I have anger issues that are quite mild in comparison to others, but for me I hate that I can’t control it. I don’t know if there is a fix, but I certainly could use one.