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Getting Better

In my Art of Getting Comfortable, I went in depth about my mental health and overall wellbeing declining at the beginning of the year. I’ve experienced these phases more than once in life but now they are getting harder because I am getting older and with adulthood I have more and more obligations which combined with my bad mental health episodes make me feel like I am suffocating.

February has been the month in which I started to get my shit together and it was exhausting and it still kind of is. There is not a switch you can flip to make yourself feel better but I am doing better one step at a time.

Since I talk about my issues online, I decided to share how I try to overcome them.

My first step is getting up early. I know it sounds like a nightmare to some, but it’s crucial for me. Sleeping too much or spending my morning just being in bed literally causes headaches and laziness for me. I like to have a lazy morning in the terms of getting up, doing my morning skincare and chilling with a cup of coffee and youtube videos or a show I watch but being awake in bed just being there – NO! And it’s exactly what I do when I am feeling down so I had to start getting up early.

Even though I am a morning person, it wasn’t easy to force myself to get up. I use the “put the phone on the other side of the room” trick and it works because it forces me to get up. My willpower is tested when I have to decide whether I want to go back to bed when I turn off the alarm or if I proceed to making my bed, opening a window to let fresh air in etc. For now, I’ve successfully stayed away from my bed after I woke up.

In my previously mentioned post, I also talked about eating a lot of unhealthy food and gaining weight. I noticed in that short period of time that my body was changing and not in a positive way. As you might concluded already, the next step is having a better diet. I went to the store, got a bunch of food and forced myself to cook it. This was really beneficial for me because as I already told you I am Cooking my boredom away during these times.

The better food policy goes hand in hand with working out. I started with some easier 30 minute workouts daily and slowly upgraded by doing more intensive workouts or using weights.

All of this sounds wonderful, but things are never wonderful when you are trying to get yourself back on track. I would fall back into my old habits sometimes but instead of just giving up on getting better, I would think about why it had happened. I try to understand the problem instead of calling myself a loser and getting back to the comfort of sleeping, eating, working and Netflix.

I think that I realized I was getting better when I started publishing poems again. My inspiration was slowly coming back as I was coming back to myself.

I still have a long way to go but at least I started.

Let me know down in the comments how do you cope with such issues, do you have some advices or steps of your own?

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

Latest Poem: Poem #354
Youtube videos: Luna’s channel
Latest Coffee Date: Equality in Parenthood
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Food is still my only hobby

Can the sun please remember that Croatia exists and come hang out with us for a little bit? The weather this week has been shitty and cloudy. There was sun, but some of us (ME) are working in the morning and since Croatia does that dumbass clock-changing daylight saving thing, by the time I actually can go for a walk the sun is gone(if there was any that day). I need to buy some vitamin D, I am getting depressed.

Let me talk about food because that’s not something I have been talking about too much lately haha. I am getting obsessed with making food but that’s what happens to me when I have a new project I like. The same with this blog and The Poetry Bar, it just consumes my thoughts.

Aren’t these like just some beautiful pancakes. Also, I will probably not go home until Christmas Eve and I am sad about that so I bought 4 Christmas decorations to make myself feel better. This picture was possible because I bought a camera I cannot afford after breaking the lens on my phone camera, ordering a new one 3 times and all three of those people scammed me and sent me some shitty plastic.

I decided to go for the American style pancakes today because I can use this blueberry “sauce” or spread or whatever on them. In Croatia we eat crepes and feel free to read that word in a terrible French accent like I usually do. Or better yet, try reading the Croatian word for pancakes/crepes: Palačinke. If there’s a square or some weird sign in the word is because your device maybe does not recognize this letter of the Croatian alphabet which is like a C but with a small V on top of it. I know that from this very professional description, you can already tell I studied languages and am actually, according to my bacc. diploma, a philologist. #education

So anyways what I was actually trying to say is that it’s easier to use a healthy homemade sauce on american pancakes which is why I made them. If I had done crepes I would go and buy Nutella, Linolada, Kras Express (I know you don’t know these last two things, but it’s for like the 4 Croatian people who actually read my blog – I see you!) because that’s what I want to eat my palačinke with. It’s how my grandma used to make them for me and even though I am trying not to eat heavily processed food full of sugar – I am not giving up on some things. No.

These random posts about my boring life are because I lack the creativity to write poetry lately. I think it’s because, despite being a bit down because of the pandemic, I am overall happy in my life. I still have to remind myself of all of the good things that I have to keep that feeling of happiness, but I am feeling good lately. Like my family is healthy, for the first time in my life I am in a relationship and happy about it (we celebrated our 6 months recently, still can’t believe it), I have a job and I am also healthy and I am making better choices in life for myself. So yeah, I am trying to keep this happiness and not let my mind get the best of me because that does happen sometimes. I start to overthink or I just start imagining negative things in my head and I get really anxious and sad. I know there are a lot of people who go through the same thing. Just want to let you know that we are in this together.

Since I started to do these daily posts and update you on the fact that my life consists of working and cooking, I was actually thinking about filming vlogs and uploading them to my Youtube, but I don’t think it would be very fun to watch because my life is just like: get up, spend 8h working from home, cook and eat, force yourself to walk and exercise for a bit, read or watch something and go to bed. But I am still considering that idea of filming how boring and random my life is. Let me know what you think down in the comments.

As always, let me know what you have been up to, how are you spending your weekend, what’s been happening?

I am going to go and watch Netflix today because I am so full that I need to rest for a bit. Just to let you know I am a little pig, this stack of pancakes was dessert. I had a full meal before that – a couscous salad with chicken and a bunch of veggies. I can’t breathe. By the way, let me know in the comments if you have some TV show suggestions for me. I have Netflix and HBO GO so those are the two platforms to choose from. Movies are welcomed as well.

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

Latest Poem: Poem #345
Youtube videos: Luna’s channel
Latest Coffee Date: Flowers in the Garden 
Latest #savingme: Give Women Their Rage Back

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Let’s be positive

Hello everyone!

When I publish my own work or thoughts, I always write a looooooooong column-like post and I decided to move all of that to the comments now. I want you to write down in the comments one positive thing that happened to you recently. Times are rough for everyone because of…2020.

Let’s do this now. My positive event recently:

I read Gloria Steinem’s book Revolution from Within and this book really made me question a lot about my life and decisions I have made. It actually gave me the courage I need to start making some big changes.

Now, I want that comment section burning! Let me know what positive thing happened to you recently and let’s spread good vibes 🙂

Luna

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Coffee Date with Luna: Inspiration in pain

Hello everyone and welcome to another Coffee Date with Luna!

Usually I intended for Coffee dates to be published each Saturday but here we are.

Yesterday I went to bed a bit early because I wanted to wake up early today but that didn’t work and I ended up spending a few hours overthinking and my thoughts came to my blog and my writing.

If you follow me, you know I haven’t been posting a lot of my original poetry lately and the reason for that is that right now I am very happy in my life. I have already noticed before that I have writer’s block when I am happy. Poetry and writing in general had always been an outlet for me, a way to let go of bad emotions and terrible experiences. When I come to periods such as this one when I am happy, I have things going well for me, that creative part of me just become blocked.

Do you experience this?

I know everyone has their way of writing but I got to thinking if this is toxic for me in a way. Would I ever sabotage myself and my happiness in order to write something? And yes, my brain likes to go to extremes when I am overthinking alone at night but this question has really been bothering me. How far would I be ready to go to break this writer’s block and can I unintentionally invite unhappiness and pain to my life just to find inspiration to write?

My mind was spinning a lot last night and I thought it would be best to read more and get in touch with art and poetry again to find a new source of inspiration. Do you have any good book recommendations to get me through this period?

Writing is something that has been with me through life, I have created my blog around it and I have connected with all of you thanks to poetry and I would hate to have to pick between my writing inspiration and my happiness.

Even though I am very happy currently, this part of me is missing and I think I would experience my feelings of joy more intense if I were able to write about them but I fail every time.

Tell me what you think about this, have you experienced this or any other type of writer’s block. Also, is there any subject you would like us to discuss in our Coffee Dates?

Sending love and positive vibes,

Luna

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Positivity Press #60 – Puppy dance

Hello everyone!

I am still stressed and trying to cope with everything going on in Croatia. I did promise we will re-activate The Positivity Press during these difficult times to keep positive, read something happy every day, but I honestly don’t have a lot of positive thoughts or events going on in my life right now.

But a promise is a promise so here is J Balvin and his adorable dog dancing to Baby got back because dogs make everything better. Just look at him!

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Positivity Press #59 – When Times Get Tough

I can’t count the number of times I’ve been so frustrated on this path and wanted to throw in the towel. Sometimes I just can’t stand the constant up-hill battle I have to face in order to meet even the smallest goals. There are days I just want to give up and try something else. There are days I wish things were as easy as the false teachers claim, but I already learned the hard way that following their popularized image will get me nowhere. It’s difficult being strong when it looks as if you’re not making any progress and there are so many things close to your heart that you want to contribute to. It can hurt your self-esteem, too.
  Still, the frustration passes. After a while, you remember you’re not the first person or the last to go through these trials. Your spirit team know what you’re going through. And if you have a mentor and extended family like mine, you also have physical people you can share your troubles with. It’s good to know you’re not alone – whether you’re a student, a single parent, suffering from depression, or recovering from addictions or abuse, you are seen and felt and loved. Sure your path may be hard, but that proves it’s worth following. You’re not the first, and you won’t be the last; but you can be a guiding light to those who come after you.

Bio: Ena Whiteraven (a.k.a. Henry) is an aspiring novelist and poet who uses elements of mystery and fantasy to inspire readers to seek truth and embrace their creativity in an encreasingly dark world.  Her writings have appeared at The Poetry BarThe Positivity Press, and the famed Spiritually Awkward Magazine  . She is currently in search of publishers and fellow writers who share her vision.

Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCnmXah9fuEJGg_go7DKUrhA

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Coffee Date with Luna: FOCUS

Hello everyone and welcome to another Coffee Date with Luna!

I spoke in a post this week that I am feeling a bit stressy depressy because I am struggling in my career and many other areas of my life. Things haven’t been going smoothly lately, I feel that my health is also deteriorating because of this. I am one of those people who will have general life problems and they will just project onto my health but I am working on this.

I am not here to tell you I am stressy depressy. I am here to tell you that I am done focusing on this and so should you. If there are, let say it, “black” areas in your life, a lot of negativity and problems and if you only focus on those then that will be all there is. Get your mind out of that dark place. I am not one to tell you to ignore any signs of negativity or depression in your life. I think it’s important to asses a situation and to know when your mental and physical health are in danger because it’s the only way to protect yourself and save yourself BUT – don’t let that be all there is.

Sometimes, when we are struggling the most, something good happens and we ignore it because we are so busy and overwhelmed with focusing on every negative aspect of our life. Turn the situation around. If you are struggling with your career or job, instead of focusing on the bad things, focus on having a job and being grateful for it while finding ways to improve your situation. I think this example says a lot about what I am actually trying to tell you.

Don’t let those bad thoughts invite more negativity into your life. Just try to find that positive event, that person that is making your life great or better – be the person that’s making your life great! You can achieve this by being grateful for what you have, seeing the negativity in your life and working on ways to make it better, turn it into something positive.

We are all battling our demons on a daily basis and we all have our reasons to do the things we do but without recognizing the good in our lives, we are letting those demons get the best of us.

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Merry Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

I just love the Christmas season, it’s so beautiful and sparkly and warm! This has been by far one of the best Christmas Eve and Christmas Day I had with my family. I did miss the snow, this Christmas has been very warm in Croatia, nothing in comparison to the Christmas when I was a kid but it was still lovely.

On the 23rd my sister came with my baby nephew to our apartment and we decorated the tree here and yesterday on Christmas Eve we were all at my sister’s house and we decorated the tree there. We had dinner there and it was so yummy, my sister is a great cook. Next to the fish and everything she made a great Seafood risotto. I am getting fat people.

Later, around 8 o’clock we went to church to Marija Bistrica, which is a Croatian sanctuary. To be completely honest, I am not a church person, I never go to church but I know how important it is for my mom so I was there. The car ride was great. Me, my mom and my nephew were in the back seat and my nephew was in that car seat for kids. We were like sardines in a can which you can see from the photos below.

Today, my sister, nephew and brother-in-law are here for lunch. That’s pretty much it on these two days in my family. You can also check out the Christmas Eve outfit I wore yesterday.

I think I will be spending the rest of the day watching Home Alone and other Christmas movies.

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna

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Positivity Press #58

Yesterday, while I was at work, my boyfriend texted me that we didn’t have any power! And then, when I got home, the mower wouldn’t start. Bad connects, he thinks. Anyway, I called the power company to let them know we didn’t have any power. They told me that the power would be on by 4pm! It was only about 130!! It was nearly 90 degrees out! (We don’t have ac – only fans, including but not limited to ceiling fans.) Couldn’t even take a shower to rinse all the sweat off!
I could’ve let that ruin my day, but I didn’t. I worked on my laptop, editing some photos (no power=no wifi). As long as the battery had some charge in it, I could use it! When I was done with that, I did some reading.
I mean, I could’ve let those two things ruin my day, but I didn’t. There is always something to be thankful for…we’ve got a roof over our heads, food in the pantry and the bills are paid. All the other stuff is minor.
My boyfriend, on the other hand, is another story!
My name is Holly and you can find me at my blog Holly’s World ( https://wordpress.com/posts/photogarphybyhcmorris77.com )

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I need some positivity!

Hello Guys!

Just checking in because I need some positivity to be send my way. I failed my drivers exam today. AGAIN! It’s the second time. I just can’t. I’m desperate and going bankrupt because of a driver’s exam. I did everything right and in the last 3 minutes of the exam I didn’t stop at a stop sign (yes, I know it’s stupid) and I failed. I fucking failed again.

Then I went to DM, for those of you who don’t know what DM is it’s a store to buy makeup and all of that stuff, and then I saw this notebook. Have you ever felt a sudden urge to purchase something. I felt like this notebook was then and there to be purchased by me. Isn’t it pretty?

Anyways I’m kind of down but I am trying to stay positive despite everything. Now, let me see that positivity in the comments and yes you may make fun of me because I failed on such a stupid thing. GO!