Changes, changes

What could you do differently?

This is a very appropriate prompt for this time of year when everyone is making changes and new decisions. Also, this is a difficult question.

I think that one of the biggest things I would like to change about myself is my overthinking. Sometimes, it comes in handy and it prepares me for a variety of scenarios but often it just makes me jump to the worse possible scenarios, makes me anxious and it also makes me doubt my own intuition because I don’t know if I am having a good hunch or is my mind just overthinking everything.

I would also like to stop being a completionist. The amount of books I’ve read completely just because I had to finish them is appalling. I do the same thing with any task I decide to do or new activities I implement. Even if I see that something is not working for me, I will obsess about having to finish it.

This is a bit hard for me to admit, but I wish I had a better control of my own reactions. Usually, if someone disrespects me or hurts me, I will keep my mouth shut because I know how vicious I can become if someone pushes me too hard. That silence often builds up inside of me and eats me up alive and erupts in the end or I silently resent people around me.

And this is my big one. I wish I didn’t feel guilty about standing up for myself. I am still learning how to draw boundaries with people in my life and often when I do it, I feel guilty or I feel like I am being selfish but when I don’t do it, I often end up in situations I didn’t want to be in.

This list could go on for days, but I will finish it here. What are some changes you would like to implement in your life?

Love,
Luna

Don’t forget that my first novel is available on Amazon: Little Rebellion
Also you can get my poetry books: Rehab and Identity crisis