Good morning and happy Monday!
I am doing better. Thank you all for the support and for the kind comments and messages after my complete meltdown. It really meant a lot to me. The past week has been scary for me because I don’t know how to manage my head and my thoughts sometimes and my mind takes over and I spiral. There were some pretty dark moments, but your girl is doing better. I have three days more of work and then I have some time off which will be useful to me to celebrate the holidays as best as I can in these circumstances and to recharge my batteries.
I am trying to enter this week and I will try to enter 2021 with a positive attitude because shit already hit the fan this year and I’ve proven to myself I have the capacity to deal with this. Minor issues such as my meltdown are a part of the process for me and I am glad that I am once more showing myself I have the strength to pull myself up and that I am not letting anxiety and negativity to eat me up alive.
This has been challenging for everyone and the holidays will be challenging as well because this is when loneliness and sadness about not being able to see our family will creep up. I know that people refer to this as a “new normal” and I refuse to use that term. This is something we need to survive and then we can go back to normal. I think that our normal will be more appreciated after this fiasco of a year and that all of us should gain more respect for other people and for nature. If we don’t learn something from 2020, I don’t know what to think.
I would also like to let you know that the camera equipment I bought has been put to use! I can’t wait to start posting on Youtube, very excited about this. I love having a project, something to focus my mind on.
Anyways that’s it from me today. I hope you are all doing well, thank you for being so supportive.
Let me know, what have you been up to this weekend, how was your week and all of that fun stuff!
Sending love and positive vibes,