Croatian Karen

Hello everyone and welcome to an episode of me being heated. 

I have spent the day stuck with my laptop working on editing my  vacation vlog and actually learning how to edit a vlog and I postponed going to the store. In the evening I decided to go to the store to pick up some stuff I need and to take a walk because I have been staring at the screen for hours.  

It became mandatory to wear a mask in stores and I always have them in my bag. So I grab the things I need and go the checkout counter. There were three people in front of me and a few behind me and only one checkout counter was working. This is a common thing in this particular store. They have about 5 checkout counters and mostly only one actually works.  

The guy working at the checkout counter is obviously new or is a student working part time. He had a woman complaining about something, wanting to speak about it to someone and she was nagging him while he was charging a man for his purchase and then the Croatian Karen behind me opened her entitled mouth.  

She asked the guy working there if he could call another employee to open a second checkout counter so that we wouldn’t have to wait in line and I agreed. In this situation, it’s not ideal for people to stand in line at the store. He had to call someone about the woman complaining about the product and when the Croatia Karen realized that the second employee wasn’t there to open a checkout counter but to attend to the other client she went off.  

“We want you to open another checkout counter. What is this, open another checkout counter!!!!” 

And then she addressed him in a very rude manner. Let’s say she said something like “Hello boy, can you hear me”. I wanted to punch her so badly. I just wanted to punch her. Everyone was standing in line, waiting calmly and she was there being entitled as fuck. Everyone feels uncomfortable wearing a mask and no one wants to stand in line but shit happens. No one forced you to come to that store. If it was uncomfortable for her to wear a mask she could’ve stopped and asked herself how uncomfortable did the workers feel having to wear them for 8 hours. It is a problem to have people standing in line waiting in a store but it’s also the workers who are there for 8 hours dealing with customers and are at a bigger risk of getting the virus than a person that comes, buys and exits.  

People, I wanted to punch her and it took control and a lot of inner self talk to prevent myself from telling her to shut up. Luckily, another coworker came and opened a checkout counter and I don’t think it’s necessary to mention that all of the customers moved so that she could go to the checkout first.  

Karen didn’t even exit the store properly, she was already taking off the mask. The only thing more Karen than this is Karens not wearing masks at all. 

Anyways, I bought myself some chocolate as well so I am happier now and not heated anymore. 

 Sending love and positive vibes 

Luna 

Coffee Date with Luna: 20 something crisis

Hello Everyone! 

It has been a long time since I just posted on the blog, had a talk with you or in this case, a cup of coffee. There is a reason for that. I have been going through a bit of a crisis that I do not know how to explain to myself or to others. 

I have a good job which keeps me financially stable, recently I met someone very special in my life, since I started working from home I have had more time to spend with my family, I have great friends and the list could go on about the things that are really going for me right now and still I am so miserable. There is a constant feeling of something missing in my life and it’s eating me away.  

I know that my career choices have a lot to do with my unhappiness. My goal in life was not and is not to be a customer service agent. I do like this job and I absolutely adore the people I am working with but there is still that feeling that something is missing. I have been in this career crisis on and off for the past 2 years and it’s a normal thing every 20something goes through but I can feel my mental health going to hell fast because I cannot cope with not having a purpose in life. Being aware of the fact that my degree is worthless and that no one wants to hire me in digital marketing because I have no fucking experience is not making this easy on me.  

Yesterday was my one year anniversary of working as a customer service agent. I have been feeling like shit for the last two weeks because I knew that I was reaching that one year at a job that was supposed to be temporary until I get my Digital Marketing certificate so that I can do something I am 100% invested in. But again there is this fear – what if I get into a Digital marketing agency and realize after some time that it’s not what I actually want? What if I just got that certificate to cover up for the fact that I dropped out of grad school without a fucking plan? 

As you can see, I am struggling which is why I haven’t been so active on the blog. I have had problems opening up to people about this because they either do not understand completely what I am saying or hit me with “Do you know how many people lost their job during quarantine and how many people are being paid less because of the COVID situation and how lucky you are right now?”  

Yes, I do know. 

I haven’t been fired, my job was never in question and there were no paycheck cuts in my firm. The only difference for us was that we had to work from home. That is it. Not a single person in the customer care center where I work felt the effects of quarantine when it comes to job security and money and this is amazing and I applaud the company for that.  

I don’t know if I am able to put this nicely, but I do not know how to feel okay and satisfied with my life just because others have it worse. Other people being in bad situations shouldn’t be a standard for me to feel good about myself and about my life but I have often felt under attack if I expressed any of these opinions out loud which made the struggle in my head even worse because it is all in my head. 

And then I opened up my laptop today and decided to write this mess out because this is my safe place and I often stray away from it when I’m in trouble but I am glad to be back. Thank you for putting up with my annoying rant about unhappiness. I know that our Coffee Dates are usually reserved for happy thoughts but I just had to get this off my chest. 

Please do let me know if you experienced similar issues and how did you deal with them? Let’s be the supportive WordPress community that we are.  

Also, we already passed 5,5k followers here on WordPress, my Poetry Bar inbox is full of your submissions so let me know if there’s any type of different content you would like to see on this blog. I publish from 3-5 Poetry Bar works daily, do you want more? Would you like for me to write about the current events, maybe to do story times, do you have some questions for me so we can do a Q&A type post. Tell me all of your wishes down in the comments because, honestly, I need some content ideas and working on this blog has always helped me work through my personal issues.  

I love you all, thank you for being so amazing and so supportive! 

Sending love and positive vibes,
Luna