I was woken up around 6:30 this morning by another earthquake. If you have been following me for a longer time you know that besides COVID, Croatia has had an awful earthquake that left people homeless, we had a flood and this morning we had another earthquake. If this is a trailer for 2021, I am not buying a ticket for that movie.
The epicenter was not near my city but it happened at the same time the first earthquake did and my bed started to shake around the room, I heard the furniture shaking, the cracking sound. It was the same as the first time just less intense shaking. I know a lot of people had PTSD after the first earthquake this year and I hope they are okay because this was a strong trigger for everyone. According to the news there were no victims but there are damages.
There was another minor earthquake about two hours later and this one was scarier for me because I was completely awake and I just felt the couch shaking. Also living on the second floor of an older building during an earthquake does not make shit easier.
I know that entering 2021 will not change anything or erase this past year but I am looking forward to exiting this year. I am going to make lunch now for me and my mom and I am going to make pasta because pasta is comfort food and makes me feel happier.
I hope you had a better morning and that you will have a great week. I love you all and alsooooooo this week we will have a new Youtube video!
I am doing better. Thank you all for the support and for the kind comments and messages after my complete meltdown. It really meant a lot to me. The past week has been scary for me because I don’t know how to manage my head and my thoughts sometimes and my mind takes over and I spiral. There were some pretty dark moments, but your girl is doing better. I have three days more of work and then I have some time off which will be useful to me to celebrate the holidays as best as I can in these circumstances and to recharge my batteries.
I am trying to enter this week and I will try to enter 2021 with a positive attitude because shit already hit the fan this year and I’ve proven to myself I have the capacity to deal with this. Minor issues such as my meltdown are a part of the process for me and I am glad that I am once more showing myself I have the strength to pull myself up and that I am not letting anxiety and negativity to eat me up alive.
This has been challenging for everyone and the holidays will be challenging as well because this is when loneliness and sadness about not being able to see our family will creep up. I know that people refer to this as a “new normal” and I refuse to use that term. This is something we need to survive and then we can go back to normal. I think that our normal will be more appreciated after this fiasco of a year and that all of us should gain more respect for other people and for nature. If we don’t learn something from 2020, I don’t know what to think.
I would also like to let you know that the camera equipment I bought has been put to use! I can’t wait to start posting on Youtube, very excited about this. I love having a project, something to focus my mind on.
Anyways that’s it from me today. I hope you are all doing well, thank you for being so supportive.
Let me know, what have you been up to this weekend, how was your week and all of that fun stuff!
I got my period. My boyfriend is self-isolating. I miss my mommy. I ruined my lunch and now I feel sick. Today is not Friday.
Has this been too much info for you? I have no shame, my online friends are my only friends now.
How is your day going?
So, my definition of this day is shit happens. And also, pesto is just….not my cup of anything. I don’t know why I thought that would be the food for me and I ruined a perfectly good plate of pasta. Since its 1 PM here and the day for me has been cancelled, I decided to order food because I just can’t. There are just days when the world should give you a break and let you be in bed, watch movies and get paid to do it. Am I right?!
So, I am a mess today and very negative but that’s okay. Shit happens. I don’t know where this post is going, just wanted to air out my frustrations to someone. This pesto is messing with my stomach and I didn’t even eat it properly because I spit it out and everything around me now smells like basil.
I can’t. Done. Gone. Pray for my stomach and may the delivery man come as soon as possible with my food because the last thing my angry ass needs now is to turn into a hangry ass.
But I have to list at least one positive thing – my skincare products were delivered today morning. Order placed yesterday, products delivered today – this is the type of service I love and I love my Skintegra (the name of the brand) and they made my day. Even had a little Merry Christmas card in the box. I love them!
When I am done with my shift I am going to take my long, daily walk, come home, watch some Netflix and hope the rest of my week is better and that all my deliveries come by Friday. Amen.
Can the sun please remember that Croatia exists and come hang out with us for a little bit? The weather this week has been shitty and cloudy. There was sun, but some of us (ME) are working in the morning and since Croatia does that dumbass clock-changing daylight saving thing, by the time I actually can go for a walk the sun is gone(if there was any that day). I need to buy some vitamin D, I am getting depressed.
Let me talk about food because that’s not something I have been talking about too much lately haha. I am getting obsessed with making food but that’s what happens to me when I have a new project I like. The same with this blog and The Poetry Bar, it just consumes my thoughts.
Aren’t these like just some beautiful pancakes. Also, I will probably not go home until Christmas Eve and I am sad about that so I bought 4 Christmas decorations to make myself feel better. This picture was possible because I bought a camera I cannot afford after breaking the lens on my phone camera, ordering a new one 3 times and all three of those people scammed me and sent me some shitty plastic.
I decided to go for the American style pancakes today because I can use this blueberry “sauce” or spread or whatever on them. In Croatia we eat crepes and feel free to read that word in a terrible French accent like I usually do. Or better yet, try reading the Croatian word for pancakes/crepes: Palačinke. If there’s a square or some weird sign in the word is because your device maybe does not recognize this letter of the Croatian alphabet which is like a C but with a small V on top of it. I know that from this very professional description, you can already tell I studied languages and am actually, according to my bacc. diploma, a philologist. #education
So anyways what I was actually trying to say is that it’s easier to use a healthy homemade sauce on american pancakes which is why I made them. If I had done crepes I would go and buy Nutella, Linolada, Kras Express (I know you don’t know these last two things, but it’s for like the 4 Croatian people who actually read my blog – I see you!) because that’s what I want to eat my palačinke with. It’s how my grandma used to make them for me and even though I am trying not to eat heavily processed food full of sugar – I am not giving up on some things. No.
These random posts about my boring life are because I lack the creativity to write poetry lately. I think it’s because, despite being a bit down because of the pandemic, I am overall happy in my life. I still have to remind myself of all of the good things that I have to keep that feeling of happiness, but I am feeling good lately. Like my family is healthy, for the first time in my life I am in a relationship and happy about it (we celebrated our 6 months recently, still can’t believe it), I have a job and I am also healthy and I am making better choices in life for myself. So yeah, I am trying to keep this happiness and not let my mind get the best of me because that does happen sometimes. I start to overthink or I just start imagining negative things in my head and I get really anxious and sad. I know there are a lot of people who go through the same thing. Just want to let you know that we are in this together.
Since I started to do these daily posts and update you on the fact that my life consists of working and cooking, I was actually thinking about filming vlogs and uploading them to my Youtube, but I don’t think it would be very fun to watch because my life is just like: get up, spend 8h working from home, cook and eat, force yourself to walk and exercise for a bit, read or watch something and go to bed. But I am still considering that idea of filming how boring and random my life is. Let me know what you think down in the comments.
As always, let me know what you have been up to, how are you spending your weekend, what’s been happening?
I am going to go and watch Netflix today because I am so full that I need to rest for a bit. Just to let you know I am a little pig, this stack of pancakes was dessert. I had a full meal before that – a couscous salad with chicken and a bunch of veggies. I can’t breathe. By the way, let me know in the comments if you have some TV show suggestions for me. I have Netflix and HBO GO so those are the two platforms to choose from. Movies are welcomed as well.
I was supposed to finish my Coffee Date with Luna yesterday evening and have it published today, but that is postponed because my mother had this terrific idea we should start assembling our new dining table at 7PM on a Friday night. Yes, my life is a bit boring.
We are still in the process of buying furniture for our apartment, replacing the old that we do not like etc., and my mom got obsessed with this dining table and we bought it as well as a new coffee table for the living room. I really have to emphasize that we still have our old coffee table and our old dining table. Did that stop my mother from making me unbox the pieces and forcing me to help her assemble the new table? No.
We now have two coffee tables, one regular dining table and one dining table that still has to be assembled. I feel like I am living in a furniture store. Why didn’t we finish the table, you ask?
She didn’t want to say it out loud, but along the way, my mother realized that we actually cannot fit two dining tables in our apartment at once. All of the sudden she wanted to go to sleep because she was tired. Mhm. She just didn’t want to admit I was right.
I cannot wait for all of this remodeling to be over, but the thing with having a mother obsessed with stuff like this, means that remodeling is never over.
I know that people look forward to changing up their apartments but buying new furniture doesn’t just give you new furniture. It also gives you back pain and THEY SHOULD PUT THAT ON THE BOX with the instructions. I am going to do my stretches now and today I will finish the Coffee Date post. I promise that no piece of furniture will stand in the way of me finishing that post.
How are you doing? I hope you are well, healthy and happy. The situation with COVID-19 is taking a turn for the worse in Croatia. Zagreb is the epicenter of the illness, masks are becoming mandatory in all public transportation, stores and coffee shops. I can’t wait for the push back because of the last one. If you know anything about the Croatia people, you should know that we have a coffee drinking culture. There are actual researches that show that the Croatian people are one of the people who spend the most time drinking coffee in coffee shops and bars. I am so interested to see how this will turn out.
I have actually been to a store this morning, buying a present for my sister and there were still people (older people) without a mask and on the entrance of the store there was no sanitizer. I have no words. I can understand that store workers are overworked and that they didn’t manage to refill the bottles or replace them, but I have no excuse for people not wearing a mask. I didn’t wear it until recently, but since the number of cases is spiking, we should all start wearing them and start behaving responsibly..
I went on a whole Corona rant for no reason, but do tell me how is the situation in your country?
I am actually leaving for my vacation tomorrow. I am still cautious and broke enough not to leave the country so I will be visiting the island of Krk in Croatia. I am so excited because I missed the seaside ever since I left Zadar and I am looking forward to relaxing and chilling and getting a tan and everything! I was also considering trying to film a little vacation vlog for you all. I think it would be a good way to connect with you and show you how pretty Croatia is. I have been thinking about creating videos for a while now and since we are approaching 6000 followers, I thought it could be our new thing. Also, if you would like to see more content about the little vacation, you can follow me on Instagram @luna.theblog.
Since this blog is my life at the end of the day, you know my laptop is coming with me. I will not let The Poetry Bar go out of business just because I am on the beach. I will still open every e-mail and post your work. Also, I have a little question for you. Can you please tell me do you get like a notification every time I post your work, that I placed a link to your page or anything like this? Thank you in advance to The Poetry Bar crew who will let me know in the comments! I am asking because I don’t always have time to write an e-mail back to you and I would hate to have to send a generic template whenever I post your poem.
I will finish this post now, because you know I can talk and talk forever. Stay safe, healthy and happy!
I know that my blog completely revolves around writing and poetry but I’ve always kept this category called “My Life” where I wanted to post stuff that happen to me, where I go etc., but I am not really the kind of person to take pics when I am out, having a good time, hanging out with my friends. Currently the only thing I have going on for me is work. I go to work, come home, blog, blog, blog, shower, blog, blog, blog, pass out in bed. That’s my life for the past… for a while now but I still wanted to keep this category alive until I get out there and get a life so here’s an outfit I posted today. I wore it nowhere because I can’t come dressed like this to work and I think it would be uncomfortable to sleep in it. I am just being embarrassingly honest in this post. I have no life. Can someone relate so I don’t feel alone in this all hustle and grind lifestyle?
First I need to apologize. Lately I haven’t been so active and I wasn’t replying to all of your wonderful, supportive comments because honestly I didn’t have much time. Here’s a little explanation.
I am quitting university. This is a very big step for me and I am absolutely terrified of doing it but I am also aware that it’s necessary for me to take a year off and get some time to think about what I really want in life. I already have my bachelor’s in Spanish and Italian but I am just not sure this is the career I want to be in right now. All of this is life changing for me because I’ve been doing this for three years just to realize it’s not all I thought it would be when I enrolled.
Also, the main reason why this is so scary is the fact that I don’t have a job. Sadly, with me degree I am qualified to do absolutely nothing. I’ve been to a job interview, I am applying for jobs everywhere and I think that I will be waitressing for this year until I figure out what I want to do. All I am sure of right now is that I need to find a job as soon as possible because I am as broke as one can be.
The hardest part of quitting is actually moving out of my apartment. I am leaving it this Saturday and I am just surrounded by boxes, bags, stuff and it’s all a big mess. Moving is exhausting and that’s why I didn’t spend a lot of time on my page.
This is pretty much the explanation. I will keep you updated here about everything that’s going on and as soon as I get any job, you know I will brag about it here. Send me positive thoughts because I seriously need them now and fingers crossed for my job hunt. Thank you again for all your love and support, you guys are the best!